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I would have made a good profiler. People with Aspergers might make good profilers because we can take judgment out of any equation and look at the facts. We can also understand behavior that most people wouldn't be able to fathom simply on principle. I found that out in the "psyche blur" days when I watched a special on a serial killer my age . . . I understood him and while frightening on a lot of levels, what I also understood was that there is a need for people like me, people who think the absolute best of everyone, think good thoughts all day . . . we come here, in a not so hard to understand way, to balance the scales.
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My son told me that his aerator thingy made even cheap wine good. I didn't believe him, and I did want to, so I ventured out for cheap wine today. Tested it and I swear it works . . . now I'm chinkin' through makin' my own wine again. I tried that and it was absolutely not drinkable. I mixed the yeast, the grape juice, the sugar, the water and threw a balloon on top of that jug. Rules were, balloon goes up wine is making, balloon goes down, wine is good. That is so not true unless one happens to be a ragin' alcoholic out of Nyquil and mouthwash. Today I am still writing . . . good thing . . . and I am fascinated by the tea light that has been burning for 8 days now. I add wax as it burns down and it just keeps burning . . . honestly there could be no wick left. My mind won't let it go so I have to tell someone. My newest theory is that it is burning the creosote build up somehow staying lit. It makes me laugh because I lit it the first day I began writing this and it is still burning . . . I'm now gauging days by this candle . . . I've been working all morning, swearing to myself this book will be finished and all I can think is how I want to write an article about the candle that kept burning and burning and burning . . . seriously, it is fascinating me, now it's a challenge. I can even do the math, I burn an average of 3 tea lights a day, that's 37 cents per day, Jesus candle cost 85 cents. Utilizing the wax from the 85 cent Jesus candle I have saved, so far, over $2. I want to shout that out to world and somehow, laughing, I do not think they will care. "Mind worms" . . . what a frighteningly new term that is for me. I just read a Facebook post defining the way my thinking works as "mind worms". Thank every positive force that be in this Universe I never registered those words, that visual, before. That was not my "visual" at all. My thought comes in fireworks, light paths burning through my brain. Quite frankly, I did not know that I was awatchin' my mind worms burn. On so many levels that's a quantum relief . . . yes indeedy, just reread that and it makes perfect sense to me so . . . POST. If I want to remember a film I watch it "closed captioned" in English. You'd think that would mean that I'd watch a lot of foreign films. Nothing could be further from the truth. There are very few films I find worth remembering. I tend to watch documentaries with closed captions, sometimes even with the sound off, just so I can consciously learn. It's so city enlightening here . . . outside, sirens, people arguing, Venus the only star, trees in concrete planters, I counted stacked and packed people, choppers flyin', planes landin'. I didn't miss that living in Washington. I actually turned off all the electricity to my house, at the box, just so I could hear the almost silence I had. I did that more than I ever told anyone. AND today's truth: I have no clocks because they don't all agree EVER, the coffee maker doesn't match the stove which doesn't match the microwave which won't match the TV EVER, pisses me off . . . |
About Janet:Janet DeLong, PhD, is a philosophical writer. She'd tell you that is by default, we know it's by design. While her perceptions are not always comfortable, they are always Categories
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